growing up sucks at times....

At times I hate being an adult.

I crave the carefree days of childhood.

I would love to go back and relive some of my memories.

I just got off the phone with my older brother. We have never been close but I love him so much. I have a few vivid memories of the two of us as children and I cherish each memory. Now that we are adults, time seems to get in the way. We have gotten a bit closer since Brittney's death; and I hope as we grow older we can become good friends. I would love to know him, be able to talk to him for hours.

I just got off the phone with him. I always cry when we get done talking. I have never told him that. I don't know why I feel so much emotion. I want to help him. I want to make him happy. I just want to get to know him as an adult.

I have two wonderful brothers. I need to work on my relationship with both.

I want vivid memories as adults with them.

I want to be good friends with them.

I want to forget about being an adult and tell them how I feel with out being embarrassed.

I love them and don't want them ever to wonder.

I have two great brothers, I hope we can become a family again.